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I thought I was just tired, but my nervous system was manifesting chaos.

Here's how I got back into alignment.

This week at work, something came up.
We're preparing to launch something new, requiring collaboration across multiple teams.

One team in particular had not consistently attended our biweekly meetings, even though key decisions depend on their input.

When I checked attendance, I saw that their manager had joined less than half of the sessions.
Things were getting delayed. And I knew I had to say something.

So… I sent one email.
Clear. Respectful. Factual.
But my body thought I had committed a crime.

After hitting send, I crashed.
My energy plummeted. My back started aching.
And my mind spiraled with doubts:

“Was I too harsh?”
“Will they hate me now?”
“Did I just make everything worse?”

The wild thing is I had done everything right.
I was calm, professional, and honest.
But the moment I hit "send"…
I wasn't 40 anymore.

I was 7 all over again.

And for the next two days, I became that fragile, scared little girl.
The one who learned early on:

“It’s not safe to speak up. It’s not safe to be myself.”

🧠 What science says

Neuroscience shows that your body doesn't register time like your mind does.
When old emotional wounds get triggered, your nervous system responds as if it's happening right now.

In his book The Body Keeps the Score: Brain, Mind, and Body in the Healing of Trauma, Dr. Bessel van der Kolk calls this "the body keeping the score."

So even a simple adult act, like setting boundaries, can trigger a survival response if your body doesn't feel safe.

That's when I realized:

My frequency had shifted into survival mode.
And my outer world started reflecting it.

✨ What I began to manifest…

During those two days when I felt small and on edge…
I started manifesting chaos.

People misunderstood me.
Tension showed up everywhere.
It was like the Universe was mirroring my emotional confusion.

Until I took a step back, and remembered:

You can’t manifest from alignment if your body is stuck in survival.

Manifestation isn't just a mindset game.
It's a nervous system game.
Your frequency follows your physiology. Every. Time.

🧭 How I got back to myself

I knew I hadn't done anything wrong.
But I also knew my body wasn't lying.

So I got curious.
Instead of pushing through, I slowed down and asked myself:

What's the worst thing that could happen if they disapprove of me?
Where did I learn that being honest leads to punishment?
Who's really activated right now: my adult self, or inner child?
What would I say to that little girl if I could hold her?

That's when it became clear:
It wasn't I who was unsafe.
It was a younger version of me who didn't feel protected.

So I did what I now believe every person must learn to do:

I regulated my nervous system.
I taught my body how safety feels.

🧘‍♀️ The ritual that brought me back into alignment

I knew I couldn't just think my way out of it; I had to reset my nervous system intentionally.
So I started researching ways to feel grounded, connected, and safe in my body again.
That's when I created this simple 10-minute ritual.

It's now how I remind my body: we're okay.
Not just once, but again and again, until that feeling becomes natural.
So, I can return to my version that manifests with clarity, confidence, and wholeness.

If you've ever felt off after doing something brave…
If you've lost your center after finally speaking up...
If your mind says "you did the right thing," but your body still doesn't feel safe...

This is for you.
I've attached it to this email so you can try it whenever you need.

I hope this supports your journey, wherever you are right now.
Take what you need. Come back to it anytime.

With love, truth, and deep regulation,
Myrna 💛

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P.S. 2 - Curious to go deeper? I mentioned The Body Keeps the Score by Dr. Bessel van der Kolk, one of the most powerful books on trauma and nervous system healing.
📚 Here's the Amazon link

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